Monday, May 23, 2011

Life as It Is

It's been ages since i post an entry. Despite the busyness and hectics of working, the tensions which was building inside me were looking some way out of my body to release most of it so i would feel more alive than like a dead woman who's still breathing with no passion, no feeling except hatred and anger every seconds that pass by. I'm exaggerated. yes, i know. and yet, who cares? I did.

Who said being a teacher is EASY? Dare one said to me and i'll tell hundred of reasons why one WRONG. Being a teacher is one thing. Learning to communicate EFFECTIVELY with EVERY students is one thing. TEACHING EFFECTIVELY is one thing. and the lists goes on. Not including facing the most pain in the ass at school! which is many of them! Oh Lord, help me. Help me being a reasonable person, teacher, friend, children, counselor and what ever it may takes. I'm over rated. Well, yes. I did. Help me with it.

It is common that we will find so many kind of people in the process of growing up. I am surely still in the process of growing up. I'm only 26. Actually not yet. At least not until August. But, who cares? I know, I did. I'm almost 26 and yet, I still have problems to manage my stress, most of the time. Sometimes I hate me. I hate it when i couldn't managed the stress properly.

I also happen to hate myself when i'm trying to be nice to the people who is a real pain in the ass. Deep in my heart I scream with hatred. But sometimes i just can't treat them the way they treated me. I tried to be hard, but sometimes i just don't have the heart to do it. I would say I would but then, there is something, deep, deep inside me would feel pity for that "pain in the ass" until i couldn't do it. I'm melting. because i feel pity for them if i don't help them. Which most of the time they don't feel pity on me.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Don't look down on other people

“A proud man is always looking down on things and people; and, of course, as long as you're looking down, you can't see something that's above you.”

love the quotes. don't look down on other people. DON'T. i'm not saying that i'm perfect. i'm not saying that I've never looking down on other people. i'm not saying that sort of things. i'm not saying that i will not looking down on other people. i'm just saying a fact. that is what i'm trying to say.

Dalam hidup ni kita selalu jumpa bermacam-macam jenis orang. Kadang-kadang orang yg kita jumpa tu ada lebih sikit daripada apa yang kita ada. Kadang-kadang pula, orang yang kita jumpa tu, kita pula ada lebih sikit daripada dia. Apa yang lebih tu hanya kita sahajalah yang tahukan..boleh jadi apa saja yg lebih dan yang kurang tu. Tapi pernah tak kita fikir dan perasan, kadang-kadang dengan apa yang kita ada tu, kalau lebih sikit dari orang lain, KADANG-KADANG ia boleh mendatangkan perasaan riak dlm hati?mungkin kita tak perasan, mungkin juga sengaja buat-buat tak perasan. hanya kita dan tuhan saja yang tahu hati masing-masing. Ini juga sebagai satu peringatan kepada diri aku sendiri. Supaya jikalau apa yang aku ada tu melebihi daripada orang lain, seboleh-bolehnya jangan bersikap memandang rendah pada orang lain yang kadang-kadang boleh mendatangkan perasaan riak dalam hati. mungkin kita anggap org tu tak ada apa yang kita ada sekarang, tetapi manalah kita tahukan suatu hari nanti? Orang tu mungkin akan dapat melebihi apa yang kita ada sekarang ni. 

Boleh jadi apa sahaja, kadang-kadang, kita mungkin rasa berbangga dengan apa yang kita miliki, boleh jadi kita berbangga dengan kekayaan yang kita ada, mungkin juga berbangga dengan kejayaan kita, kita mungkin juga berbangga dengan kebahagiaan yang kita miliki, sehingga terkadang itu juga kita terlupa apabila berkata-kata sehingga kata-kata kita itu menghiris dan mengusik perasaan orang-orang keliling kita. Ya, kita memang patut berbangga apabila segala penat lelah kita berusaha akhirnya membuahkan hasil, kita berusaha dengan keras, kita juga patut mendapat pujian atas segala yang kita usahakan. Tetapi, kita juga perlu fikirkan yang kekurangan yang ada dalam diri orang lain itu bukan semestinya kehendaknya. mungkin dia juga ingin miliki apa yang kita miliki, bukan dia tidak berusaha, tetapi hanya kerana sesuatu yang bernama REZEKI itu belum lagi miliknya.  Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu. kita hanya berusaha bukan?mungkin usaha kita membuahkan hasil pada kali ini tetapi orang lain tidak. dan kita juga perlu sentiasa ingat, mungkin juga pada lain kali, usaha orang lain akan membuahkan hasil tetapi tidak kita. kita tidak akan sentiasa berada di atas. ada masa-masanya kita akan berada di bawah juga. bagaimana pula perasaan kita ketika itu jika orang lain pula memandang rendah terhadap kita?


Saturday, March 19, 2011

My Best Friend Wedding

nurin's solemnization..copy from her facebook
Went to Nurin's wedding today..she looks gorgeous! den pny gambar xdpt nk upload sbb camera den ngok ngek skarang nih.tgkp pic pun xcantik. so terpaksa tunggu piccas drpd farah..hehe. That's the picture taken from nurin's facebook on her solemnization.simple but nice..suka tgk baju dia. pelamin dia lg..love it! hehe..ni yg buat rs xsabar ni nk kawen.opss..kawen..kawen..kawen..xsabar nk kawen tp proses nk kawen ni memeningkan kepala.yelah, mana taknye, byk sgt benda nk difikirkan. hantaran, pelamin, tema, baju, etc..etc..mmg boleh aku pening kepala..! aahh..waiting for farah to upload the photos!mana la cik kak ni.mata dh kuyu-kuyu dok tunggu2 tp dia xonline jgk..haih..!

My Second Blog

ok, seriously people! i'm not a writer! sometimes i hate myself, in fact ALWAYS! i'm not the one who could just sit down, write perfectly, words after words came out easily and in the end it turn out to be one fine story or whatever it may called. i am the one who would sit there hours after hours typing, deleting, type again, delete again and do the rhythms until i'm exhausted and guess what i have after hours of sitting trying to write something wonderful? i finally get a blank page! haha. yeah, lame..this is actually my second blog.the first one?i just feel i need to shut it down.work with something new.new look(really?).i spend months thinking about the names,the themes,how it should be.and because i'm also not creative,poor with adobe Photoshop,  i can't do the things like i want it to be..whatever..at least i have try..didn't i?hehe..oklah,jadi, dengan ini saya..merasmikan blog baru saya, yg bernama..::What to do if you feel giddy:: her way of making life less stressful as it already is.. the name still related to my previous blog..i've made up my mind about the name eventually..why?because i have always feeling giddy..things that have been happening in my life now or before even in the future would always giving me giddiness..and this is one way of making sure i'm living a life as it is, as it should be..i've always feel stress, and with this blog i hope i could channel my stress to the right place with the right words so life won't be that hard even if it is..